Its been a while since I last posted and I have had so much going on that I wasn't sure what to post about first. This was until I went through my pictures and was reminded of a fear I over came. Those who have read any of my previous posts will know about the scars I have on my thigh and my foot. They are part of me but for the longest time I have not been able to own it. By own it I mean wear what I like with the greatest confidence. Wearing a bikini was actually the one thing I'd told myself I would never do BUT as you can see the above picture shows me in a bikini.
I was at my friend Nicole's house and this girl always has a bikini in her car even on a cold day lol.... So it was no surprise when she said we going to the beach and her next words were "your wearing a bikini". I cannot explain the thoughts that flooded my mind about how ridiculous I would look and how people would stare. Was I ready for that??? Of-course not BUT I have one amazing friend she kept telling me how I needed to own my scars. So I did and I put the bikini on and it took some courage to take the shorts I was wearing off when we got to the beach. I was uncomfortable at first but then I just told myself that I needed to have fun. This is my adventure and if I wasn't willing to step out of my comfort zone and be proactive then I am defined by my fears.
I am not one that likes to be controlled and I wasn't going to left Fear keep driving me. I gained more self confidence on this day although it was hard. This was a battle I was having with myself, if you look at how I am posing you'll see that I am hiding my left foot. It is because I have grown accustomed to hiding my foot but I am working on stopping this. The scar on my thigh doesn't look visible in this picture but in person it is. I always say this but now I know your imperfections make you beautiful
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